Physician and Patient.
I wear two hats. That of a physician and that of a patient. It’s a tall order, especially during this pandemic. The two roles often feel in opposition to each other. While the healer in me wants to be “out there” working in the front lines she also says the same thing she would say to another person in the same position: “No, don’t do that. You are part of the vulnerable group most likely to have a severe case of COVID-19. Do what you can from the sidelines. There is plenty of healing work to be done that doesn’t involve exposure.”
I became a doctor because I love helping people. I’m a healer at my core. The fact that there is no way to save people from the brutality of COVID-19 is a difficult one to accept. We are all dependent on our own immune systems to fight the battle and there is no treatment proven to be effective. Scientists are working faster than ever before but a solution is not there yet. Right now it is nature or nothing as a healing entity.
So I do exactly what others are doing. I am sheltering and working from home. I am doing all I can to keep myself healthy and my immune system strong. That means good sleep, outdoor exercise daily (socially distanced of course), good nutrition, and recommended supplements such as Vitamin D, Vitamin C, and Zinc. I keep in touch with friends and family by Zoom, phone, and text. I listen to podcasts and I also participate in group therapy designed to help the group cope with the huge amount of grief and frustration that COVID-19 has brought to our world.
The illness that puts me most at risk with COVID-19 is Sarcoidosis. Most people haven’t heard of it. It’s a chronic immune disorder that most frequently affects the lungs, as it does in my case. So I’m very careful about social distancing. Mask and gloves when going in stores. Social distancing outside. Lots of time at home. I GET that it sucks to withdraw from social occasions and the workplace. I’m frustrated like everyone else that we need to do this. But I also have confidence that we will get past it in time.
If I didn’t have an increased risk for this disease I might not understand the need for social distancing. So if you are staying at home and don’t feel you need to I offer you a big THANK YOU for caring enough about others to respect the need for social distancing. It might just be that you helped save some lives.